Ending and the spiral into beginning

At the end of 2008, I created a newletterish piece to send to family, set up as a blog, and sent out the URL instead of the paper. One more step toward the greening of -- well -- everything. of course as I move my body through an ever increasing sea of WiFi, the health effects of this seemingly greener option are yet to be seen. Or am I in denial? Yesterday, in the mineral pool up here in Calistoga, I could not take my eyes and ears off of this 69 year old woman, so confident with blazing blue eyes, telling tales to a friend - of her travels and family. I kept listening because I want to how how you get to be going on 70 and vital like that. One thing she said is that her computer is at home - plugged in the wall. No EMF's for her. So there you go. All I have to do is be like her! Step away from the WiFi! No...imagining what she would say to me - if I asked her for advice- is be yourself. Don't worry about stuff, just figure it out, make a decision. Relax.

It's attitude first - action follows.

Speaking of advice, in a dream two mornings ago, I was visited by a guru - who wisely gave no advice, but instead was WITH me. Here's the story as I shared it with a friend that morning:

I went to bed a little after 8pm- woke up at 4:11 am and thought I might be awake for the day - then dropped into a really deep sleep - dreamed I was leading (or trying to lead) a yoga class and a guru (Iyengar-like - Geeta and BKS :) ) appeared, helping me to lead asana because I couldn't get to everyone (I've had dreams before of being in this situation, but with no help...). Then we all took a break while he/she and I planned out the afternoon session - the yoga other than asana. My part was to lead a chant and I first thought of Om Shanti - he/she encouraged Om namah shivaya, so I decided to do that. Our interaction was very peaceful and yet urgent - one of mutual support. I woke up as we were beginning the next session.... When I woke up I remembered something John Friend had once said about Om namah shivaya - I think it's likely related to the six tone scale we were talking about yesterday. Seems like something to pursue. I don't remember ever being visited like this in a dream - or otherwise - before. I still feel a sense of calm.

This is the second time I've had a dream experience where I woke up with a clear sense of connection with another and experiencing energy I liked. The first one was when Omaha came in a dream while I was in Spain in 2007. That was about Love.

This experience was about Companionship, Mutual Respect, Support.

And, now that I reflect on it - these are the energies of needs, at least for me. I want more! Love that. Careful not to grasp for the outcome - the met need. Beacuse the need is the need whether met or not. Hmmmm. This experience came in a way I wasn't expecting - a dream. Now I find myself thinking, "more dreams like that, more dreams like that...." Missing it after two nights without such a dream, wanting it, and even wondering what could be wrong that he/she hasn't come back. UH oh, grasping again. Confusing form with energy. Relax.

Attitude before action.

So ANYWAY, that end of the year newsletter blog got me remembering how much I like to do this blog thing - for the product, but even more so for the process - I seem to tell myself stuff I like to hear when I'm writing this way. And I thought I'll just start one for 2009 and blog away.

Today is only (Gregorian) New Year's Eve - and of course I begin today. Because I'm ready. Because we're spiraling into a new cycle - the year is turning. Because every end contains the beginning. And how you position yourself in the turn affects how you come out.

Resolution? not so much.

Alignment.